[ Like. She can understand being excited to see another one (the idea of being excited, at least), but hers hadn't offered much beyond something like desolation. Certainly no flying trains. ]
[ Mafuyu exhales, slowly, looking at the clouds. ]
I don't feel impatient, exactly. But I wish... at the very least, when I thought I knew what I wanted to do, when I thought the dream was coalescing...
... That my mother didn't think I was wrong for it.
I don't really know anything about your mother, but...
[He frowns, leaning forward a little, hands clasped in his lap.]
I want to believe that someday, when she sees you successfully following your dream, when she sees how happy that sincerely makes you, she'll come to understand better.
She... was the reason for it. The original reason. What I thought I wanted to do.
[ Not what her mother wanted her to do. When it had started to click, and then she'd smiled and smoothly walked it back because that was what her mother thought was best for her. ]
[ Slowly, Mafuyu tilts her head back, resting against the window of the train. ]
When I was younger, I came down with something. Probably just a cold, but I had a fever and was generally miserable. My mom took time off from her duties to stay with me, talking to me, making me apple slices that looked like rabbits, holding my hand. Just... making it clear that there was nothing she'd rather do, nowhere she'd rather be than with me, helping me feel better.
I know it was technically the medicine and resting that helped me recover quickly, but... I never really forgot how warm it felt, having someone by my side who just wanted me to feel better.
So I told her... when I realized, that I didn't want to be a doctor, but someone who could bring warmth to others, the way she had for me. Someone who could support the people who needed it, when they were scared or hurting.
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Miku just bounds over to take Mafuyu's hands eagerly.
"Don't be so formal! We're friends now!"
Tsukasa finally pushes himself up, dusting himself off.]
Miku, how many times do I have to tell you not to tackle me?
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[ She is so confused by this, but she's not questioning it. You can't turn down friendship with any Hatsune Miku when she declares it is such. ]
This happens all the time, then?
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[HUFFFF.
As evidence, Miku is already tugging Mafuyu along.
"Mafuyu-chan, Tsukasa-kun, let's go on the flying train!"]
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[ Flying train. Of course there's a flying train.
Again, she looks a little overwhelmed, but she's letting Miku tug her along. ]
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[Dryly.]
Of course there's a flying train.
You see! It wasn't strange for me to be overwhelmed the first time!
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[ ... ]
You must have been underwhelmed by mine.
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[ Like. She can understand being excited to see another one (the idea of being excited, at least), but hers hadn't offered much beyond something like desolation. Certainly no flying trains. ]
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[So what?
He follows along as Miku, humming, tugs Mafuyu to the station where the flying train pulls in.]
But I imagine your SEKAI must be a very peaceful place, especially if you were looking for rest or recovery.
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[ She feels sort of like a lost child here. How fitting. ]
It's very quiet. So when you need to be alone or let your thoughts be at rest, it's good for that.
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... Tsukasa shrugs a bit, picking a seat and settling in as they soar into the sky.]
Precisely. And that is often what you needed, isn't it?
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... It was. And it's logical that we both need different things. I'm just...
[ ... ]
I feel... a little lacking. But that also makes sense.
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You have absolutely no reason to feel lacking!
Besides which, your SEKAI is much like a blank canvas. I imagine it will have a great deal to offer as you grow and embrace your dreams.
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[ Mafuyu exhales, slowly, looking at the clouds. ]
I don't feel impatient, exactly. But I wish... at the very least, when I thought I knew what I wanted to do, when I thought the dream was coalescing...
... That my mother didn't think I was wrong for it.
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[He frowns, leaning forward a little, hands clasped in his lap.]
I want to believe that someday, when she sees you successfully following your dream, when she sees how happy that sincerely makes you, she'll come to understand better.
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[ It's barely above a whisper. ]
She... was the reason for it. The original reason. What I thought I wanted to do.
[ Not what her mother wanted her to do. When it had started to click, and then she'd smiled and smoothly walked it back because that was what her mother thought was best for her. ]
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[Hm?]
What did you think you wanted to do?
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When I was younger, I came down with something. Probably just a cold, but I had a fever and was generally miserable. My mom took time off from her duties to stay with me, talking to me, making me apple slices that looked like rabbits, holding my hand. Just... making it clear that there was nothing she'd rather do, nowhere she'd rather be than with me, helping me feel better.
I know it was technically the medicine and resting that helped me recover quickly, but... I never really forgot how warm it felt, having someone by my side who just wanted me to feel better.
So I told her... when I realized, that I didn't want to be a doctor, but someone who could bring warmth to others, the way she had for me. Someone who could support the people who needed it, when they were scared or hurting.
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Just not in the way her mother envisioned for her.
Isn't there something tragic about that?]
... It sounds to me like your mother has embodied those traits as well. She just needs to come to see the value in you embracing them as well.
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[ ... ]
I'm not even sure if I'm capable of doing that for others.
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Of course you're capable. That isn't even something that should be in doubt.
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[ Of course she's in doubt. ]
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... Well. You are surrounded by all sorts of people right now, aren't you? People you don't have to pretend for.
Why don't you see if you've brought any of them warmth?
[He suspects that'll be a hearty yes.]
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[ .... ]
Mm. I'll ask.
[ Completely out of the blue. Poor everyone else. ]
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Tsukasa just nods firmly, satisfied.]
Good! I think you'll find the results to be enlightening.
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